this is where i yap about anything i could possibly be thinking about in the moment
"entries" are updates on my personal life or shit i'm doing/working on
anything else is me yapping about stupid shit
( warning!!! typos, swears and weird shit )
december 28th 2025
i finally have a working version of rin-artz.neocities.org!!! it was way easier than i thought
although... it's just text and clickable links for now. i still have to learn how to actually customize stuff and add cool visuals...
that's gonna be a pain in the ass.
in other news, im so FUCKING MAD AHHH yesterday i woke up with my right ear clogged with probably earwax
tl;dr shit happened and now BOTH ears are clogged i tried everything and there's nothing i can do to unclog them!!! not gonna lie
at the moment of writing this entry they're lowkey starting to hurt a bit and idk how to feel about that...
anyway i'll go get them cleaned tomorrow so hopefully that goes well
so yeah that's it cya
edit: THEY DIDNT CLEAN SHIT!!! ughhh i'll explain some other day but my ears are still clogged
january 1st 2026
wow. 2026 already. man i'm gonna go bald before i do anything cool with my life.
2025 was a crazy year, a lot of things happened and much of it was tied to even earlier events from 2024. 2025's end leaves me a bitter taste in my mouth... but
do i regret anything i did then? mostly nah, or at least, not anymore. things have been starting to look much better for me, and i guess
i'll eventually talk about the not-so-great things that happened in the past... but for now, i'll talk about the future and what my plans currently are for 2026
i used to be a kid with a bunch of dreams and ambitions... and i still am, but now i feel like i know what i'm capable of and what i want to achieve this year.
it's not a lot but i'd definitely be content if i get to do it.
all i wanna do now is to release at least one comic/manga chapter under my name and to stream games online!! i kinda wanna start making a name for myself online...
i've been on the internet for like 12 years already and i started creating stuff half of that time ago. but all of that old content is gone for reasons i'm yet to explain...
i really wanna start creating, releasing and posting stuff online!! art, comics, music, animations... god i really wanna have an animated webseries on youtube.
but i wanna make sure i even finish anything at all this time, so for now i'll be here pondering the question of what to do first.
i really wanna make some sort of comic as soon as possible... but i think starting with a short animation might be cool hehe
either way, i'll keep you updated :P
nah. honestly, i had fun. a lot of stinky fucking shit happened but honestly, the takeaway for this year was surprisingly positive.
a lot of things changed, some for the worse and some for the better... maybe. but as of now, i feel pretty happy.
of course things aren't perfect, they're far from it... but i think that's the point. i know where my dream lies and the obstacles in the road will only get me closer to achieving it.
despite everything, i've come to accept the fact that... i'm genuinely a loving person. there are many things i love, things i love to love. but it all boils down to just... life.
us people, are such complicated beings, that you can't just narrow anyone down to a simple sentence like you could with a random character from a book, movie or show.
we are so nuanced... i've learnt to see the good in people despite their problems leading them to lugubrious paths. i've learnt to forgive when necessary.
i've learnt to truly appreciate each and every single one of the people i hold dearly in my heart... even if i still can't put anything to words.
i struggled a lot this year. it was definitely the year where i was at my lowest emotionally, mentally and/or whateverthefuckally, despite it not being the worst of them all so far.
but now? the world feels so much more bearable, so wonderful... if i was reborn now, i'd chose to live as this irresponsable loser all over again if it meant meeting
all these wonderful people again. but uhm... yeah, thank god this fucking year ended already. i don't think 2026 will be much better but we'll see.
i'd like to remain moderately hopeful.
i don't know if anyone's even gonna read this... but in case you ARE reading this, happy new years. you did a good job, i'm proud of you. good luck this year.
OH MY FUCKING GOD WHAT DO YOU MEAN THIS YEAR IS MY LAST YEAR OF SCHOOL????? OH GOD OHG FUCK
january 12th 2026
dude i wanna do so much cool shit on this website but idk how to do it aaaaaaaahhhgrfaghiarude i need to learnnn but idk don't feel like it
im also really fucking bored like idk i drew for the whole day today and idk im not satisfied with the shit i made
actually ima put it right here
anyways uhm i forgot to say, my ears have been unclogged!!! they got unclogged like uhhh i think almost a week ago i dunno i forgor :skull:
so yeah that's all i got for today
see ya